What the fuck

A broken relationship is a crushing thing. It’s a tearing of the very fibre that makes us human. We loose ourselves in the process, we become a shadow of who we were and in most cases; we morph into another person. It’s an interesting thing. And I believe we all have gone through a broken relationship at least once in our lives.
I’ve had my share and the worse kind, is when they leave without telling you anything. They just stop talking to you and leaves you with silence. That’s the most painful of all. The hurt of a broken heart is compounded by the sense of rejection. Once you were the darling of the person, now you are an after thought.
For a long time, I battled depression. I am no longer ashamed to talk about it because I have come to accept it as a natural part of my personality. No point hiding behind a sense of false positivity when inside, you are miserable and down.
There are mornings I don’t feel like getting out of bed. There are days I don’t feel like talking to anyone. There are moments, I want to curl up on the floor and cry. Yet there are times, I want to hit out at people around me and make them understand how I am feeling.
I don’t need words of encouragement or pearls of wisdom. All that is needed is a gentle hug and you saying, “I am here for you.”
Depression brought about by a broken relationship is bad enough. Misplaced words by friends add salt into a gaping wound.
I am going through a period at this moment. I’m coping and it’s really complicated. I don’t need “words of wisdom”, instead I just need people to care and understand the view from my side of the fence

2010

Its been awile since i last updated my last blog . HAHA sorry bout tht, and today im off to uitm sri iskandar perak fr my registration day ;p Arious ppl

Satu ketika dahulu

Future, memories always in our mind
KAMI, always remain as friends . Some in uitm some in uniten some in piloting some in msu some in uniKL some in lim kok wing and some disappeared like a wind .
Holiday was the best day in our life, planning a gathering and share stories either wht hppnd in past or latest . Damn is so glad to meet up again
Some will say that no one can replace you guys, we’ve face our obstacle and life without them is sucks and I have felt that bfr
Meeting new mates was great, there’s good and also bad . But what happened just wait and see until next semester, watch out :P
Some say I am a lesbian, it is TOTALLY funny . Some say I didn’t ate, because I look skinny like a papan . HAHAHA I ate ALOTT
Problems, Friends always there . Cry cry cry, some worth it and some not
Here some memories to share, friends

* Names: pooh, schin chan, jepun, ju’on, elmo, sponge bob, piglet, sizuka, lidi, nigga, mudpie, gemok, cina and some i can’t rmmbr .
* After schl, our port sebelah mak cik goreng pisang NO ONE can sit tere
* Sometimes the old gerai was our fav eating nasi goring daging merah and ABC where i don’t knw yg mana 1 dah
* At schl we laugh and laugh and laughhhh
* Datin, once she become my enemy but then she become our fav
* Mcd is our place when duit tak kering :P
* Teacher Murthi , chemistry teacher I never undrsnd you
* Library where the place kami akan buat bising, and then mak cik tkda kening dtg haha
* Jusco Bukit Raja midnight movie
* Padang 4 where the place for main bola
* Friends, Ex class 5B
* There’s sometimes lepak dkt tasik saja saja
* And scooter azim was our fav
* Then mai and azim’s birthday, padang infront libaray
* Then reihana, aisyah and afhdal’s birthday, aisyah’s home
* Then eiqa and nabil’s birthday, our fav port
* And came hari raya, love it !
* Ohh tasik near eiqa’s hse
* Hari raya, I and diddy jatuh frm azim’s scooter damn is pain
* Andd our prom night, I attend it wth my friends
* And lastly new year 2009’