Friday, January 15, 2010


Single ? Is it a problem ? No and why . Well u knw when your in a relationship its like nothing in this world can simply discribe it . Well its been a long time since i felt that way, i don't miss that either . I just realised today tht its already 2010 so its like 1 year since those loving thinggy ended . My attitude its all turned out being ganas and mostly towards guys, this is some funny story in 2009. Theres a guy came from bota just sblh uitm je, he text me and called me some geli things and he end up kena maki tahap max dgn reihana nur. And the next day until today 15th jan 2010 he won't dare look at face at all,wht a pity man sorry . I dont make this thing as a funny story or something, it just being loyal its not enough. I face this in 2009 and damn what a stupid I am . You always had to tell yourself did he/her deserve you ? And do you deserve this ? . Think bout it & now i really want to meet a guy that can stand last forever (: *dalam mimpi*

What the fuck

A broken relationship is a crushing thing. It’s a tearing of the very fibre that makes us human. We loose ourselves in the process, we become a shadow of who we were and in most cases; we morph into another person. It’s an interesting thing. And I believe we all have gone through a broken relationship at least once in our lives.
I’ve had my share and the worse kind, is when they leave without telling you anything. They just stop talking to you and leaves you with silence. That’s the most painful of all. The hurt of a broken heart is compounded by the sense of rejection. Once you were the darling of the person, now you are an after thought.
For a long time, I battled depression. I am no longer ashamed to talk about it because I have come to accept it as a natural part of my personality. No point hiding behind a sense of false positivity when inside, you are miserable and down.
There are mornings I don’t feel like getting out of bed. There are days I don’t feel like talking to anyone. There are moments, I want to curl up on the floor and cry. Yet there are times, I want to hit out at people around me and make them understand how I am feeling.
I don’t need words of encouragement or pearls of wisdom. All that is needed is a gentle hug and you saying, “I am here for you.”
Depression brought about by a broken relationship is bad enough. Misplaced words by friends add salt into a gaping wound.
I am going through a period at this moment. I’m coping and it’s really complicated. I don’t need “words of wisdom”, instead I just need people to care and understand the view from my side of the fence

Saturday, January 2, 2010


Its been awile since i last updated my last blog . HAHA sorry bout tht, and today im off to uitm sri iskandar perak fr my registration day ;p Arious ppl